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The fact that this man on the bridge calls him ‘Bucky’ when everyone else calls him ‘the assetreally, really, fucking really screws with him. You can almost see the schematics of the programming whirring behind his eyes and that SPARK there, like he didn’t have a name before this stranger gave him one? Carries through to the next scene, which I am going to admit is my absolute favourite; oh my GOD. OH MY GOD he played it like a child who wants something like a child who really just WANTS THIS ONE TOY FOR CHRISTMAS like he’s trying to make his inner landscape come to life just so he knows he’s not crazy. ‘I knew him,’ he says, and iI bit teethmarks into my hand. It’s the single strain in his mind; the only thing strong enough to counter the kill order, and he keeps repeating it like a drowning man with a lifeline, the only thing in this haze. ‘But I knew him.’ he says; and he’s trying to CONVINCE Pierce as much as trying to state it - if it only exists inside his head (the head that’s been wiped so many times by so many people, the mind that’s been scrubbed clean and then frozen and scrubbed clean and then frozen - ) then does it really exist? ‘But I knew him.’ he’s trying to convince himself as much as anyone, he only wants to know that he hadn’t imagined it. He nods a little, to make his point. This usually works. This is his mission report. They always believe his mission report. It’s so obvious he doesn’t even think of himself as a person; he’s an asset, and he’s a tool (he would be MORE THAN CAPABLE of taking out the entire room, but he doesn’t; why? why?) and he’s never registered the need or even desire to be anything else until this day, and all he wants is to remember, because it threw him and it unsettled him and it’s for the mission and won’t you please let me remember - 

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(Source: winterpatriot)

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